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Joanna Reyburn - Long-Play Devo

in Christology, Devo, IHOP, Theology

This is this longest prayer room chunk I've ever posted online, but people have been asking for long-play devotionals for their soaking prayer times. This is an hour and 14 minutes of an IHOP–KC Devo mostly spontaneous singing around the Divinity of Jesus.
 
I have been worship leading for Stephen Venable's Christology I and Biblical doctrine classes at the International House of Prayer University for a couple semesters now, and the more I study about Jesus - His Divinity and His humanity as revealed in the Scriptures, the more in love I become with Him. I've been thinking about how everything changes if Jesus is Yahweh, the LORD, as He said, "Before Abraham was, I AM."
 
The implications for what we believe, and the way we live are huge! At the end of the day, the question is not about an expression of faith, a denomination or opinion, it all comes back to Jesus and "Who do you say that I am?" All the end of the age controversy is over the person of Jesus. Every cult centers upon a distortion of Jesus' Divinity. In the face of persecution, we will either profess Him as just a teacher, a prophet and a wise man, or we will hold fast to who He truly is, the LORD, the King of glory. Just thinking about it again gives me goosebumps. In this set, I went on a little singing journey of those implications of the Divinity of Jesus from His supremacy in all things to being persecuted for His Name's sake - the Name of Yahweh.
 
"You're more than a teacher, more than a prophet, more than a man, the I AM that I AM..."
 
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17 Sep 2008

Getting a Word in Edgewise

in Prayer & Intercession , communion, Enoch, IHOP, John 15, Kansas City, misty choruses, prayer room

I am in a spiritual community in which the common, subconscious assumption is that a prayer environment [read prayer room] changes things deep within our hearts by osmosis. The idea is that you can get transformed simply by sitting in there, and if you sit in there a long time, it's even better. Now I have always been more quality vs. quantity myself, I'd rather have a powerful 2 hours than a negligible 8, but I have now known people who for 5 years have been consistently sitting in a prayer environment and have yet to truly address significant heart issues. This recognition that one can sit in a prayer room for years, singing choruses, praying for Cairo and wisdom and revelation ad nauseum and yet not meet the Father regarding childhood wounds, acceptance and self-esteem, fear, paranoia, shame and condemnation, is a bit startling. And then I think that perhaps, this is the case with me too! I can't tell you how many times I've talked to someone about a hard time that I was going through, and their response was "You should spend more time in the prayer room."

So I go to the prayer room. Maybe you don't have a prayer room nearby, and are thusfar having a hard time relating. Maybe you're thinking, "Man, I'd LOVE to have a prayer room to go to." Don't get me wrong, it is really great. For you, maybe think about your prayer dialogue. For past few years, much of my prayer life has looked a lot like this:

"Lord I will give up everything for You. Do whatever it takes. I don't want to be offended. I will burn all the bridges and turn my back on everything.I will make my vows to You. I want to be found faithful. I just want to love you more. I'll turn my back on all the good things of this world, all the legitimate pleasures, I'll give up everything. You are the one thing I want. Everything else is vanity and chasing the wind. Nothing compares to you. I'll turn my back on my father and mother..."
So basically, take a bunch of Misty choruses and put them together.

This type of "prayer" bears a sort of fruit in my life: usually its emotion and agitation. I can get myself in an emotional tissy and cry and make my declarations of intentions, sacrifice and vows, and I leave this "place of prayer" feeling very much accomplished, go to the bathroom to wipe the mascara from my cheeks, breath in "Ah, another good prayer time," and go home.

I have begun to notice that the Lord has a hard time getting a word in edgewise.

And somehow, I can't imagine Enoch's relationship where he "walked with God" (and subsequently was no more) looking quite like this.

 

Taking a Fresh Look

Since what I'm looking for is more the "Enoch variety," I'm taking a fresh look at what prayer is. There are a few things I'm beginning to learn about where I'm at right now:

1. I love the house of prayer and corporate intercession and devotional worship with the word meditation to music, Misty choruses and all manner of things like that. This is sort of a disclaimer.
2. I can't spend 8 solid hours in the prayer room. I go crazy.
3. Times of prayer that are a personal dialogue with the Father do not occur [for me] in an atmosphere with 90db worship choruses blaring in the background. If I attempt said Father-time, I am easily enticed to cease my dialogue with the Father and begin singing "like a hammer, like a fire, break in, break in" or to engaging for "the raising up of intercessors, prophetic singers, and musicians for the houses of prayer in Israel."

All of this being said, I have discovered that carving out that time to spend with the Father alone in a quiet place, is MUCH HARDER than sitting in a room with music. Having been a singer for years on 6 am sessions in the House of Prayer I can attest that, although it is hard to wake up at 4 am to go sing, it is inconceivably harder to wake up at 4 am and sit in the living room to talk with Jesus. Inconceivably. And somehow, at 4 am (which I of course have never actually successfully done this at 4 am) as I'm sitting there trying to figure out how to talk with Jesus and allow Him to truly have His way in the dark and shadowy places in my heart, that zeal to tell Him how much I'm going to sacrifice quickly pales, as it should in the place of encounter with the one who said:

 

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. Every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other."

 

Learning to Simply Respond

"Jesus, You said I was already clean by the word that You have spoken. Speak over me again today. I hear Your voice."

Then I pause and listen. He always speaks.

"Show me areas that You are pruning for my benefit. I agree with You in this process."

Pause and wait for impressions. I find that areas will come to mind that have seemed to be set-backs, but now I recognize that it's an area that the Lord has His hand on in pruning for my good, and my mindset is radically altered.

"Lord, what is the fruit that you are calling forth in my life for the glory of the Father?"

Pause. I find many scenarios will come to mind, day-to-day frustrations, relationships, struggles and situations that I begin to recognize as opportunity for fruit; faith, patience, kindness, and love that does not seek its own.

Have you ever heard the Lord invite you to "Ask whatever You wish?" What would you say?

"Jesus, as the Father has love You, so You have loved me. I remain in Your love."

Maybe its just semantics, but I've made a conscious effort to stop using the "I will, I want to" language with the Lord, and to in-the-moment, simply "I do."

"Jesus, You called me your friend."

I am thoroughly messed up, but it's more than a stirring of my soul realm or zeal hijacking my emotions, it's become an exercise of the spirit.

Now I this is prayer; not just telling the Lord how devoted I am to Him (although that may have its place too), but letting Him really look at me; look into those deep places and draw out dreams and desires and joys that He has planted their, and root out fears and anxieties and darkness that don't belong there. I am His garden. That's what He does and what He's like.

Stay tuned for more of my prayer rediscovery.

 

25 Aug 2008

An Open Letter to Mike Bickle, Allen Hood and Lou Engle

in alcohol, allen hood, consecration, drinking, holiness, IHOP, lou engle, mike bickle, Nazarite, open letter, thecall, vow

This will probably be a disappointment if it was discovered in a Google search for heresies or some-such nonsense. This is a real letter, edited a bit for the blog-viewing audience. I came to this decision by way of a great conversations with Therese Engle and Dustin Bocks, and a bit of prayer and a dose of humility. In providing this, I in no way intent to place my conclusions upon anyone else. To each his own accountable to the Lord. Perhaps this will provide food for thought primarily in the exercise of the liberty in the spirit in contrast to the strengthening of those "soul rights" which are contrary to the things of the spirit.

Dear Mike Bickle and Allen Hood, and Lou Engle,

I wanted to write and thank you for your strong stand regarding social drinking in our community from today's All-Staff meeting. I felt that it was necessary for me to make a decisive statement of agreement and submission, mostly for my own sake. I felt that this email was necessary for the confirming of my commitment before the Lord on this matter.

I have been attempting to walk in the letter of the law (instead of the spirit of the law) on this issue to excuse my taste for specialty beer and fine wine. I've had dinner parties where everyone was over 21, and only those not on [IHOP KC] staff were allowed to have a glass of wine. I've relished the thought of trips to Canada where I could have a beer because it was "outside the country" or drinking by myself in my own home because it wasn't technically "social" drinking.

But despite all of my attempts, I have at times still been party to, or witnessed the consumption of alcohol in settings that were not appropriate. The Lord has been showing me that there has been a resistance in my heart to simply give up alcohol, and that is the greater vice and hindrance. My stubborn insistence of my "rights" has been my indiscretion.

When I read the New Testament, I see Paul's willingness to lay down his rights and give up meat lest anyone take offense. In comparison to his humility, I see the disparity in my own unwillingness to give up the little thing of an occasional Boulevard wheat and Pinot Noir. Avoiding alcohol is a pruning of my soul, and I am more aware now than ever of how needed that pruning is! Not that I need alcohol or drink it often, but that I have enjoyed the "right" to do so. Such "rights" are the exercise of a soul realm whose increasing strength has dulled my spirit.

I must also take into account that although I want to live like an established adult, play house, have dinner parties, enjoy my Pinor Noir, I cannot but recognize what I really am, which is a young single female in a community of primarily single young adults. For all of us in this situation, the renunciation of alcohol will only be a benefit to our reputation, conduct and heart before the Lord. I do not want to kick against the goads, but want to walk not just in the letter of the law, but in the spirit as well.

Thank you for your Leadership,

Joanna Reyburn

10 Jan 2008

Merchant Band at Onething

in IHOP, International House of Prayer, Kansas City, Marcus Meier, Merchant Band, music, Onething, Tim Reimherr, worship
Merchant Band Last Hurrah! - YouTube Videos from Merchant Band at the Onething Conference 2007 and recent developments as Tim Reimherr takes over the International House of Prayer worship team and I take on the role of Associate Worship Leader.
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